My Chastity Journal: Valentine's Day

2/15/18: I was expecting to be unlocked last night. Unfortunately things didn't go my way. I pulled out all of the Valentine's Day stops: roses, some chocolates, a lunch of oysters, strawberries dipped in chocolate and white wine. We went to dinner with friends and Princess wasn’t feeling up for sex afterwards. I felt very frustrated and a bit angry. I got up and went to the office to watch some porn. Before I was locked, I’d watch a bit and maybe log onto Milovana to get myself off. The combination of my state of mind and being unable to masturbate made that a self-defeating exercise. I just couldn’t get into it and went back to bed.

I laid in bed for awhile this morning next to my still sleeping Princess, but the spikes were brutal and I had to get up. I needed to get my head around this thing and figure out whether I wanted to continue. Later this morning, I shared my feeling of disappointment with my Princess. She said that she had absolutely no intention of unlocking me last night since she was sure it was what I was expecting. Further, she made clear that my disappointment wasn’t her concern and reiterated that if she was going to hold the key that it would be on her terms and that my intent to manipulate the situation deserved punishment. She really isn’t in to physical punishment so I expect some more mind-fucking and probably an extended lockup.